I have a confession to make.
You know how people say “I am my own downfall”? Yeah, that pretty much sums me up.
There are people who say “I’m so ugly” , “I’m so stupid” , “I’m so useless” or even “I’m such a faliure” but they don’t really believe it deep inside.
I actually do.
I’ve seen myself succeed once already and when I notice that the things that I do are contradictory to that success, I call myself out for it. Truth is, it’s already been a habit of mine to fail emotionally. IMO, the things I fail in are the things that matter to ME.
For example, I pass a test, sure. I fail a situation I’m having with my friend or whatever, something obviously negative and NOT something you should fail at.
It seems like I’ve already made standards for myself that I’m constantly failing to pursue. Then why set those standards, you ask? Because I’m sick of being a failure! But whenever I try to stop, I end up saying “TOMORROW”.
HOW MANY TOMORROWS IS IT GOING TO TAKE?!
I don’t believe it when people say “You’re not failing.” Why? Because I don’t have to live with those people every day of my life. Let’s face it, I don’t have to live forever with my friend who says I’m not failing. I have to live with MYSELF every day of my life. I have to listen to what I’m saying, and I’m trying but failing.
